Anyways. New Things. New Look. New Year. New Apartment.
Went on a shitty date tonight, but whatever, the world moves on. I often find it funny that sometimes I lower my standards for the sake of validation from other fags, I am slowly starting to realize that maybe that is such a shitty mistake, and will probably never lower my standards again. But come to think of it, as fags we're always driven by sex, and the act of the conquest rather than the solution. That is why adam4adam and gay bars exist, I guess, the thrill of the hunt. Sometimes I find that the orgasm lies in the hunt rather than catching what I need to catch, surprising no? I just like the chase, the thought of the action rather.
In San Francisco gays are a dime dozen, and after dating in this city for most of my 20s I am slowly starting to realize that maybe you will never find the real deal here? At the same token sometimes true love does exist.
Alright whatever moving on... New Apartment in the Pacific Heights Neighborhood of things. HUGE. only set back is the carpet! Im beginning to despise it. I hate vacuums! New roomate is absolutely adorable STRAIGHT european man with a girlfriend. Space has kitchen, common room, and my HUGE ass bedroom all for a little under 900. No closet space though, which is kind of the thing that is pissing me off, cause if you know me, you should understand that I have ALOT of clothes.. too much.. I might have a sale around spring, and donate the rest. Sad but true. Hopefully this situation works out! BUT i am excited. Irony of it all is its across the church where I used to go to ALL of my AA meetings weird.
I'll tell you about my new job later. Things are finally starting to get there.. slowly but surely right?
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