Lead Me Into the Light!

Happy! Elated!
Actually had to hear it from a third party tonight to delete that person's phone number off my phone list. Verbatim "That was some deep vagina shit" and that person didn't even really know us know us. It was gratifying and felt freeing to finally rid myself of a something that was weighing me done for a minute. I'm so excited to turn this new leaf on forward and try to move on from the pattern. It was just wishful thinking. Someday I hope we can be friends again but for now, it's just meh, who cares.
So much great positive energy has come into my life recently that I am incredibly proud to just live! I have never been happier and never been more excited. 

Concepts.

I've always wondered what the concept of "soulmate" meant. For most of my gay adult life, this has always eluded me. I've questioned whether there is really that one person out there. Unfortunately I have come to the conclusion that it does exist. Tonight I went to watch "Crazy Stupid Love" and one of the young male leads who was 13 conjectured on and on and on about having a soulmate. Though premature, it seems compelling that someone that young couldve thought of something so grand a gesture. 

Im not really sure my soul mate exists, or if he she or it is out there then I may not have yet discovered. But what I do know and understand is that there is always someone meant for one person. Someone who will understand you no matter, take your faults and learn to deal with it, and help you go and thrive. I see it all around me, no matter what type of relationship is, there is some sort of connection between those two people, and you can tell its there. 

I know its out there for me and maybe only time will tell!

xx00