The title of this has clearly nothing to do with the fact that I am asian. It refers to the coldplay song that I've adored since I was a teenager. Alot of things going on lately with me.
I recently ran for empress of San Francisco, which I lost, but even then not a total disappointment. I learned alot, and quite frankly it was one of the best things I could've ever done. Nothing can take away the experience of stomping in pink silk and a giant organza cape in the pouring rain. The only real sadness I have about the whole thing was the fact that I got skewered for no reason. But whatever as a friend who ran for politics told me, the minute you put yourself out there, they're going to come for you at every angle. In the end, in my heart I won because I have achieved more than I could ever achieve, I earned respect and that's the most important thing to me that no title or money can take away.
Being single for a little over a year now, my ex and I have really become great friends. I find myself trusting him more and opening up to him more than when we were together and that makes me happy, I call him alot, and I can be around him more, he's such a great man and I'm sure who ever he ends up with he will make extremely happy, I was lucky to share my life with him and now continue to share my life with him in a very different capacity.
Well that's it I guess nothing really more important to say in this post. Maybe I'll update you on a little someone special, but for now it's too soon to tell!
xx00
I recently ran for empress of San Francisco, which I lost, but even then not a total disappointment. I learned alot, and quite frankly it was one of the best things I could've ever done. Nothing can take away the experience of stomping in pink silk and a giant organza cape in the pouring rain. The only real sadness I have about the whole thing was the fact that I got skewered for no reason. But whatever as a friend who ran for politics told me, the minute you put yourself out there, they're going to come for you at every angle. In the end, in my heart I won because I have achieved more than I could ever achieve, I earned respect and that's the most important thing to me that no title or money can take away.
Pink Organza Hooded Cape by Mr. David. Make Up by Phatima/Lee Rude. Picture by Arturo Gucci Guevarra.
Im still in my fabulous apartment, although I find myself incredibly cluttered, not as bad as before but still cluttered. I really do like where I live. I'm going to make a serious effort to hang out more with my roomate though. I'm just trying to figure out what he's into as far as doing things, he seems like a great guy I just rarely do see him.
Definitely gearing up for another great summer in the city. It's April and with spring comes alot of new beginnings fo me. Alot of unexpected arenas I have found myself tapping into. I find myself being a little bit more comfortable with where I am in life. I'm not happy, I'm not sad either I'm just content and quite frankly I'm okay with that, if I can manage to pay my rent, and feed myself then im okay. I cant wish for the best nor hope for anything more because I will get disappointed, and lately I've found myself less jaded and less cynical than previous. Im able to confront issues that bother me, and I'm definitely more able to let go of things I find less important. I treasure loyalty and value the strength of a good friendship more than anything, and I just don't feel the necessity to embattle myself with too much negative emotions or feelings, because clearly what is the point?
Well that's it I guess nothing really more important to say in this post. Maybe I'll update you on a little someone special, but for now it's too soon to tell!
xx00
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